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Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts

Sunday, 7 June 2015

I feel like this concert fulfill so many wishes at one go.. and I'm so thankful for that😭❤️

• watching all the performances of OT6 title tracks since fiction > IABN > shadow > good luck > 12_30.. it's like every comeback we can only sit here and watch it on the screen but today.. today it came true😭

• watching their subunits.. even if it's not the original sub units groups but the harmony of dujun yoseop and dongwoon for when the door closes and caffeine is just.. all the ad-libst hey did are so so so beautiful ㅠㅠㅠ 

• which bring me to my next point of wanting to watch yang yoseop's first ever solo caffeineㅠㅠㅠ though it's the acoustic version but dujun & dongwoon performing tgt with him just make it so much more specialㅠㅠ 

• listening to troublemaker's song... 'girl who wanna play' is my favorite song aside from 'now' in chemistry album and jang hyunseung is so alive and passionate on stage that you can feel it in his every moves

• yong junhyung's slow which is my favorite though it's not the title track.. he actually perform a short cut of flower first then then throw in some stupid English HAHHAHAHAHHA LOVE U OKAY before starting slow and it's so.. perfect 😭😭😭

• lee gikwang performed 3 songs and it's so.. his style😭 have never heard of all those songs before but when he performed it he made it so his style.. 

• attending their acoustic concert.. though they only perform one acoustic version which is 'midnight' today but the song is so beautifully re-arranged together with all of the members' voices.. which make me think this must be how their acoustic concert is like😭

• getting to listening to all the b-side songs that they won't perform on broadcast.. from the more recent dance with U, history to songs like freeze and all the other songs they did perform on broadcast but finally getting to hear it live like how to love, we up, sad movie.. 


• seeing all the little moments between BEAST when they perform... it's like it's like. they've been together for what, 6, 7 years? and they can just perform as they've been but each performance you can see them making each other laugh it's like they're doing it on purpose just to tease and troll on each other 😭😭😭 I saw moments between dongwoon & junhyung, dongwoon & dujun, dujun & gikwang, yoseop & junhyung I probably miss out many other moments but it's all these moments that made me feel that our OT6 are truly so bonded and attached to each other😭😭❤️

truly am so thankful for this opportunity to see them again and to have it together with ger.. though I miss them already but here's to many more memories together 💘

Thursday, 4 December 2014

OT6ㅠㅠ thank youㅠㅠ and I love youㅠㅠ



in the entertainment industry, there is this word called "business partner". something along the line of they're just purely business partner who is in a group or a unit or a project or a collaboration, something like that right? I mean this kind of thing can't be helped. you may went through a lot of things together, a lot of hardships etc, but sometimes when you can't clique well with some people you just can't. you may have go through a lot of memories together but you guys just don't confide in each other or open up to each other about very very very personal stuffs. this "business partner" term is common in the industry right? 

but when I see BEAST, their bond, their connection, their friendship - it's so strong that even I, in a sense envy their friendship? haha. does it make sense? I mean I've people whom I feel as close to and can tell them about everything. but when I see BEAST it's just. it's like they're MEANT to find each other. they're the chosen ones for each other. that whoever up there don't just make them go through hardships together and make them even close, but also put 6 boys who equally cherish, trust, love and confide in each other. when I see how Doojoon said in a long time ago interview that he tell BEAST things that he doesn't tell his family. and today's high cut interview of Yoseop saying he would DEFINITELY tell the members about his dating things because he even tell them about his own family issue. it's like, what's there can we not talk about? I've to admit that I don't follow other groups much & I don't know if they've said words like this before but when I see BEAST, the feeling is just so different. you know the boys aren't just members. they aren't. they are friends who are there for each other through the lowest time of their lives, who listen to them cry, who laughed with them in their happy times. I really like. there's nothing more I believe in this bond of BEAST. even friendship doesn't seems like adequate word to describe their relationship. 

Monday, 1 December 2014

happy 5th anniversary B2UTYs :")



I wouldn't call B2UTYs a fandom because a fandom feels more like a place where people can come and go but a family feels more like an identity that's given to us. it is isn't it? an identity. we may be from different countries, we speak different languages, we are of different age, some of us are studying some of us are working, we all have different personalities, we all have different like and dislikes - but we all come together as one under the identity "B2UTYs". I love how the boys named so many things with us in it. their concerts - beautiful show. their song - beautiful. even jap concerts have a category of seats called the beauty seat. I love how we've such a pretty design for our official light stick, the rose bong. everything fits so well together. the Disney movie beauty and the beast. it's like we are really meant to meet each other :") I wouldn't call us perfect because like every family, we have our own ups & downs, we have our own conflicts. but what makes this journey more meaningful is exactly by growing together with each other & with BEAST through laughters & tears. let our story stay forever like the fairy tale, 오래보자♡ this incredibly thankful heart of mine will always be how I feel towards B2UTYs and BEAST :") 

Friday, 7 November 2014



even though it's sad that 12시30분 promotion is coming to an end.... rather than being sad as I looked back I think it's still more of a miracle that this comeback actually happened :") it has been what.. 4 years? since BEAST has a second comeback within a year, the last one being Shock + Soom + Beautiful back in 2010. but even though this comeback DID happen, it's actually not within cube's plan. though it's a pity that we've to see the promotion for such a good song ended so quickly and see them touring Japan next.. we've to bear in mind that the commitments in Japan was pre-arranged way before this comeback so it's unavoidable that they've to prioritize that. I'm thankful that within such a short time, the boys worked so hard to give us such a handsome performance. them who's always upgrading themselves. I think we're being pampered so much, not just in terms of fan services but even music wise. I mean really which idols comeback with a ballad song and even deliver it with such a beautiful choreography? cube too who has been working hard way before the start of this comeback. it must be difficult to squeeze in a group's comeback amidst the company's busy schedule but remember when they start asking us to do throwback of BEAST? :") we were guessing if there's gonna be sth released on their anniversary but we end up having a total brand new album and a comeback :") if not for this comeback the month of October would have been like 'drought' to us but instead it's a month filled with beautiful memories :") 

we get to know
• Doojoon prefers chest over hip (forever trolling HAHAHAHAHHAHA)
• the little fanboy who went to BEAST's fansign is actually Hyunseung's fan and he cried because he keep waving to Hyunseung but didn't get any reaction from Hyunseung in returnㅠㅠㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ (141103) 
• Hyunseung who took down his rings one by one and keep it inside his pocket because he's worried that he may hurt B2UTYs while hi5-ing them :")) (141106 melon club99) 
• Junhyung's solo HA HA HA HA-ing backstage because 'lalalalalalalalala fulyo~' XDDDDD
• Junhyung's charming girls even in Mexico with his "I love you kiss me a lot" during music bank in Mexico press conference XDDDD
• poor Yoseopie and Gikwangie who couldn't wear long coat because.... minions are minionsㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
• poor Dongwoon who wanted to picture so badly with the beautiful clock in their MV but only end up with 2 pictures of himself and a dozen of his Dujun hyung & Yoseop selcasㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 
• and our maknae eating broadcast wherever he goes - in waiting room of broadcast station (141102 yysbeast IG), in fansignㅋㅋㅋ
• our Doojoonie Yoseopie Dongwoonie who very cutely send in a capture of them streaming 12시30분 to memillmook-nim to get her customized chick avatarㅠㅠㅠㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ💕💕💕
• on the day when recording ended late, the boys who asked B2UTYs to take a picture of the carplate no. of the taxi they're taking and asked them to send it to cube & cube who even play along and tweeted afterward too ;;; and asking B2UTYs to remember to contact their parentsㅠㅠㅠㅠ 

if you looked back it has been such a beautiful month :") ever thankful.. ever grateful.. 💕💕💕 completely blessed ;; 

Monday, 3 November 2014

it's just.... such a beautiful thingㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ this thing called 'caring'


it all started with Dujun asking what's with all the chick avatars and B2UTYs telling him how they got it from memillmook-nim by sending her a screencap of them streaming 12시30분. I didn't know of this 'event' that memillmook initiates until today and I just find it so kind that, she's willing to invest all these time & efforts to customize a avatar for B2UTYsㅠㅠ she's encouraging B2UTYs to stream 12시30분 and in return she'll make a chick avatar for them. and all these is also because it'll help in BEAST having a better digital scoreㅠㅠ usually we would just remind each other to stream etc but she actually come up with an 'event' like this which I really find it so kindㅠㅠ and also after Dujun knows about the chick avatar, Yoseop and Dongwoon didn't ask a thing but they immediately tweeted to memillmook-nim asking her to make them one tooㅠㅠ its like I can almost imagine how Dujun tell the rest of the boys about thisㅠㅠ and it's not like they just ASKED for it. they actually JOINED in together with the rest of B2UTYs. I just thought it's such a beautiful thingㅠㅠ that we're able to have such a relationship with themㅠㅠ it's like they genuinely care and pay attention to B2UTYs you know? Dujun simply saw many B2UTYs tweeting to him with a similar chick avatar and he asked what is it about. it's just the pure fact that Dujun is CURIOUS just make me feel that they really truly genuinely care about B2UTYs and tbh he could have just stop there. but after he found out he choose to be involve in it too. I justㅠㅠㅠㅜ

Sunday, 2 November 2014

"all the time that was spent on you all during my youth, you all repay me by bringing me to see a better world and changing me to become a better person"

I saw this quote on weibo and it suddenly make me think a lot. they said many of life's lessons aren't learned in textbook nor lessons. the boys' kindness, the boys' thoughtfulness, the boys' perseverance during their hardship to achieve their dreams, the boys' down to earth attitude.. all the things that the boys have brought me to see, by just being the way they're, are one of life's biggest learnings to me. we may have come to like BEAST because of their music, but in a fandom many people actually come & go, but what makes us stay until this very second, I think it's really how much the boys have given and taught us. yoseop said gikwang saved him, and he saved hyunseung, unknowingly this is how is it like between us and them too. when times get rough, the boys' music is what that pulled you through and brought you healing. when you're close to giving up, you thought of what the boys went through and decided to hang on a little more. you saw how much the boys have always given to the fans and the people around them unconditionally, and you eventually learn to give more, to have a bigger heart. I think I just.. am very very very thankful. to have found them and all the people they brought me to :') 

Sunday, 19 October 2014

I don't know how a video of yangdong fooling around can give me so much feels but other than finding them super super cute (😭💕) I really once again felt how strong their bond is. they said you've to find a friend whom you can count on during tough times. it's a given for beast given how much they went through together as 1 prior to their debut and even after debut. and I think more than just a friend whom you count on during rough times, it's even more more more precious  to find a friend who will put down everything, throw away every single image of theirs to fool and be dumb with you😭💕😭 I know it's not the first time we've seen BEAST being dorks but seeing yangdong in their after-performance selves, their hair slightly messed up, the fatigue in their eyes, yet the happiness and radiance from their faces is so immense. it's like I finally get what junhyung mean by it's not work when they're together, it's like a group of friends hanging out. they're probably so tired but yangdong. seeing them fooling around together. playing so well. I just😭😭😭😭😭😭 

Thursday, 16 October 2014

there's something about BEAST that just warms your heart :") seob imitating junhyung's pose, seung laughing at kwang's silly pose, dooj pretending to drop eyedrops into dongwoon's eyes..... :") 5 years of being together but they still make us, make EACH OTHER laugh so much :") they been through so much rough times together and from now onwards I really hope only the bestest thing will happen to them. no words can be used to describe their relationship.. when junhyung mentioned just now that work don't feel like work, more of like friends hanging out together. when doojoon mentioned in previous interview that sometimes they're closer than family, sometimes they're like another form of him. when gikwang mentioned in anni video how he got tears in his eyes recalling how he was injured, and how he saw BEAST members practicing the choreography to his song history. this bond, this synergy. there's no need to say our loud. I like the fact how yoseop quoted a realistic term. he said in 50 years BEAST will shine even brighter. when you imagined being with someone for 50 years, it's the people that you know that you want to, and you will, spend the rest of your life with. I love you BEAST. I'm just. thank you. thank you really.  

Tuesday, 14 October 2014

as I read dooj's tweet about loving 1230 a lot and listening to it everyday and can't wait to share it with us, I'm just super thankful to cube. thankful that they trust junhyung and taejoo time after time in BEAST's title track. of course its also because team good life produces songs that are of a certain standard. but I realize not many groups are given the opportunity to do things like this even if they are interested. I'm thankful that cube gives them the space to grow. I can never forget when cube hands over the whole album production to junhyung and taejoo in shadow album. that's really about trusting and believing in their talent and them living up to the standard. we may have been upset with cube in the past about different things but you can't deny HOW MUCH they have done for BEAST this year. things like releasing teaser images hour by hour. it's not as if they can just set a timing and the images will be released automatically, they still have to watch the clock and release it manually to the fans and the press don't they? it sounds easy but its a actually a lot of work behind it. and the teasers we get at 1230 every night. they could have just release the teasers at any timing they want, it's not even the offices songs yet, but they choose to do it at 1230 in conjunction with the title track and it's just so much more work for them as compared to dropping the teasers at any timing. not forgetting the promo bus earlier during good luck era. the new BEAST logo. the upgraded graphic and design and style of their new album.. just wanna say thank you CUBE♡

Monday, 13 October 2014

"for 5 years, 6 members of BEAST were 1" the meaning of 561. this made meㅠㅠㅠ so so thankfulㅠㅠㅠ thank you for being tgtㅠㅠㅠ

it makes me think a lot about all the things BEAST said about each otherㅠㅠ when yoseop has his solo, it makes him miss the rest of the boys and promoting together even moreㅠㅠ when doojoon had solo activity like drama and talk about splitting income among them, he said he feel sorry & that splitting income is a way because he knows the rest of the members are working hard on the album and he can'tㅠㅠ this trustㅠㅠ when the boys have solo activity like musicals, be it dongwoon or hyunseung or yoseop's musicals, the other boys all went to support if their schedules allow. doojoon turned up for yoseop's first solo stage despite having schedules later in the day. junhyung producing yoseop's first ever solo album and he only wants yoseop to be his 'guide' singer. when yoseop is sick and doojoon tweeted about cheering for him a lot for his musical. junhyung received so many 'love calls' from others but he only think about producing for BEAST now. it makes me think about how much BEAST boys think of each other even out of their group activity. they said many things on TV are scripted, but this isn't. BEAST boys who have gone through so much things together pre-debut & after debut. they may not be living/dorming together now but this brotherhood, this bond, this friendship - if I've to choose one thing to believe in for the rest of my life, I choose this. 
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